that's a future worth hugging.

I often wonder who will be the people in my future 5 - 10 years from now. My friends, my reliance's , my confidants. It's so hard to say. Due to patterns of dwindling friendships and loves it leaves the future so uncertain in determining who will be consistently available and who won't be.
Then there is love and children. Lasting love is never a sure guarantee.
Children can be discouraging because you think about how the way you see beastly parents handle their children in the grocery stores, or to be reminded of the insecurities in which ones own parents handed down to them. The notion of carrying that over to children of their own seems grave and terrifying.
I am trying to understand, now more than ever, that fear doesn't have to be so by viewing the flip side to see a positively reinforcing representation that there is brilliant hope through such obstacles..

Two years ago, I used to work with a guy named Mike. Mike is a 21 year old software engineer and he became a dad last week. This picture is beautiful.


His life ahead may be open to a lot of hardships and changes but he will always have his son, Koen. He can dress him up for school, he can play with him, he can hug him, he can go to his parent teacher conferences and see the creative art he made.
He is fortunate in many ways. He has an opportune chance to be an incredible and benevolent father.
I think about what I most want from life is to eternally bind myself to someone by love; to teach it and live though it with them.
By being a respectable example.
Until then, I might need to build more tolerance within myself.